Saturday, October 6, 2012
Dancing with the Moon: part 1
I just woke up from a deep sleep. I could hear some muffled noises. I wonder what or who is making all these noises. I cannot clearly see or hear and I don't know where I am. It's kinda dark and wet here, but I think I like the cozy feeling in here. I fall asleep again.
I don't know for how long I have slept but this time too the same voices woke me up.
"Give me a break alrighty! I just want to sleep; is it too much to ask? " With that thought I fell asleep again.
I woke up with the now familiar voices again, i think its been weeks since i woke up. One voice calls herself momma and the other voice calls himself daddy.
It's still dark and wet where I am now.
"Baby, you are now 25 weeks old; we recently found out you are going to be a girl. Dad and I are thrilled; we can't wait for you to be born" Said momma.
"Momma, I have no idea what you are talking about." I said
"Let me sing you some rhymes," said daddy
"I don't know, maybe I am awake for about 5'minutes and I have to sleep now again, good night mommy and daddy. "
Of course they didn't stop the rhymes. From where I am, I don't think they are able to listen to me telling them to shut up and let me sleep. I let them sing and eventually they stopped and I fell asleep again.
I don't know for how long I have been here but I am making this my home. I love it here. It's as if mom can hear what I really want and she eats what I want! She calls them 'pregnancy cravings'. The other day I wanted to eat tuna salad badly and immediately I heard her say....
"Hun, I feel like Tuna salad", to dad
"Well you are not supposed to eat fish but let's see how much mercury content is there in this", after a bit if research, "I guess you can have a little", said dad and made her some to eat.
"Aaahh thanks mom for eating this", I said to her but she was kinda rude, she didn't respond. Oh wait a minute! She is unable to hear me say anything.
Every night mom sings me the rhyme Twinkle Twinkle Little star and the days dad is working morning shift, he sings many more rhymes. I look forward for them. It has become a routine for me before momma goes to sleep.
Of late I have learned that I can get attention by moving my hands and legs. Sometimes I poke momma. I discovered this new skill accidentally. One day....02nd sept 2011 to be specific....
"Hun! Keep your hands on my my tummy!" Cried my mom and dad obliged.
"Not realizing that this is one of the best moments of dads life (or so I hope), I moved my legs.
"Kick-Che! Kich-Che!" Dad said in tamil and almost started laughing loudly.
"Calm down will ya! I only moved my legs!" I said, which of course he didn't hear.
Some days, just to get momma in trouble I poke her hard. So hard that she gently pokes me back. Dad gets very upset and tells momma, "don't do that!"
I love it when that happens. It makes me feel very important.
It's funny how things are going forward. I wake up almost everyday now. Maddy's (mommy+daddy), voices are now very familiar. They arranged what they call as, seemantham. Some one came and chanted something.
There was a big feast! I got to taste so many things through momma.
"This is for your well being baby," Maddy said.
"This will help in safe delivery", said the priest.
"What delivery? are you sending me away?" I asked knowing very well Maddy will not send me away.
A few more weeks later I noticed something strange.
"Momma, why is the room I am in keeps shrinking? I don't have any more room to go around, why?" I asked one day
"You are almost here, soon you will be in my arms and I can't wait for that day. That and for the day I can finally sleep on my tummy and for the day I don't have to pee a 100 times a night", said momma.
It's just so inconvenient here. I can't stand a single day of this confines any more. I need to move out.
"Knock knock", I tapped against mommas tummy.
I almost thought she was going to say, " who is there?" But instead she said, "ouch"
I kept quite for 20 minutes and repeated, "knock, knock".
"Ouch ouch!! I think I am in labor Hun!!" Momma cried.
I think Maddy never heard of knock knock jokes.
I don't want her to cry, yet, I cannot stay in here even for a moment.
"You will be ok, we will head to the hospital right away", dad said, "and we will have our kutty baby soon!"
After a lot of searching, I finally found an opening through which I can escape these confines. I hang on to that light and keep working towards the exit. Can you believe it? The exit was right under my nose! Quite literally and I was searching for this for a while now! Duh!!
"Aaaaggghhrrrttt", momma kept shouting.
"Oh really? That hurts? Ever tried to get through a donut without breaking it? No? That's what hurts. Not this." I said.
I know, I was being unreasonable but hey, I need to get through what seems like a needle head! Give me some credit for gods sake!
After a lot of trying, I simply got exhausted. I gave up.
"We need to do an emergency c section, right away", said someone who calls herself a doctor, "we need to get the baby out!"
Did she say, "get the baby out?"
Wow, it was music to my ears. Anything to get out of this dark, tight space, which once I was so proud to call a home. Don't get me wrong, it was a nice home but it kept shrinking. How I wish it reminded the way it was before. Well, I guess all good things come to an end at some point.
After a few minutes, suddenly I was being lifted by someone. Holy ****! Everything is so bright here!
I close my eyes and I am very scared.
"Wyaaaaaan, wyaaaaaaan", I cried.
I am so confused. I wish I could go back to my old home. I know it was too small for me now and god knows it will keep shrinking, but anything is better than this sudden brightness and noise. It's getting unbearable. And cold. It's not cozy like old home.
Just as I was thinking about how cold it is here, someone said...
"Here dad, take and keep her close to your heart and give her your body warmth." Said someone.
I didn't hear anything after, "here dad", that's the first familiar word I am hearing!
Someone held me close and I started feeling very secure, comfortable and warm again. Hmmmm this is not too bad. Just as I was dozing off, I realized I am in dads arms. I felt very safe again. I could recognize his voice! Yaaaay! I am happy, this is not bad at all so far.
But I could not sleep yet.
"Here, take our kutty baby", said dad.
"Hello baby," said momma. I was so happy to hear that voice. Some familiar things are coming my way. I recognize her heart beat, her smell and her touch.
I lay back and start to doze off. I am hungry but that has to wait for at least a few more minutes. I really need some sleep!
And thus, I said good bye to my old home and entered my new one.
To be continued.....